Ana Todor Blog Journey

I didn’t know particle accelerators were such a big fuss until I heard of the Large Hadron Collider myself 5 days ago. Can’t say I’m really psyched about it (”Que sera, sera”), but one thing is certain, people are acting much more interesting than they did before the imminent “Apocalypse” had been announced. It’s like they’re all reaching out to grasp for air, like they suddenly become alive and shake off their solid contemporary-specific boredom. I even met a couple who had decided to engage (or that’s what they were joking about) because they didn’t want to die without taking this step.

Even Google is playing along

Of course, the reactions of my acquaintances alone wouldn’t have been reason enough for me to mention the LHC scientific project on my blog. I tend to despise mass hysteria. But one thing I cannot understand is how the experiment got into the press in the first place. Such things are usually kept under a deep silence as man defying God experiments always attract conflicting opinions. But this time around even Google decided to celebrate. Local press has been in a boil with live transmissions and death scenarios. And though the project has been launched several hours ago, we are not dead yet. Seems extinction had been postponed to the 21st of October, when protons will truly clash. I wonder what the press will bring up next, if we won’t die then either. So there are several things I want to do before I die:

1. Estimate the increased incomes of hypermarkets as people  rush to buy what they truly dream of before they die
2. Estimate the tendency to rise/fall of violence across the globe because of this LHC buzz
3. Live the rest 70 years I deserve to live

So yeah, I believe it’s about income after all. But it also concerns human rights. Still, somebody attracted my attention that if I have the right to live, everybody else has the right to be stupid from time to time. That includes the over 1000 scientists we will blame in case of disaster.

Also, there are other things that concern me more than the end of the world at the moment. I think that is true for most of us. In my case, I worry more about the Bulgarians building a nuclear powerplant. And maybe most of all, I’m shocked about the death of Bugs Bunny. See below what I mean.

Marks in the sand of Costinesti, Romania

I was told that in order to truly live your life, you have to do something you fear each day. Blogging is, for most, not really a big deal. But I fear it. I could find you entitled to mock me in the face. But then I’d be certain that you cannot understand the joy and pain that writing brings. Frankly, I fear technology as it steals us away from real life and makes us forget our real values; we dig ourselves deeper in this binary hole.. soon privacy settings start to enrage us and make us forget the real people tipping their toes in nearby rooms in wait for us to return to life.
Ironically, as in every initiation rite, while stealing some of my real life sanity.. this blog also enables me to see more details in life..just thinking about the possibilities of what i can write here makes me want to discover (or build up?) more sense into life.. more feeling.. more thoughts..
Nevertheless I shall not stop writing too soon. But i shall be aware of the manner in which it shall be done. I will try to morph my reality into this toy like world.. while remaining outside the thrilling shell of feelings.. This is not yet over..